Oh, how pathetic this mind-body is:
As much as i take care of this mind-body, to keep it functional, to keep it running, to maybe reduce some pain that is to come or not. i am disgusted by its presence, its limited ways, its habits, its wants, its desires, but i enjoy its presence, its limitations, its habits, its wants, its desires.
i keep telling myself that i am not this mind-body.
How pathetic is the fact that i have to do this. HEHEHE HAHAHA LOLOL
This is a little tidbit from My boy Shiz Nis (Nisargadatta Maharaj), it gets me through.
This is my medicine!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Who is my-me?
I am the Medicine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HEHEHE HAHAHA LOLOL
Consciousness and the Absolute – The final talks of Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj – Edited by Jean Dunn
Doctors have diagnosed that this body has cancer. Would anyone else be as joyful as i am, with such a serious diagnosis? The world is your direct experience, your own observation. All that is happening is happening at this level, but I am not at this level. I have dissociated myself from Sattva Guna, beingness.
The Ultimate state in spirituality is that state where no needs are felt at any time, where nothing is useful for anything. That state is called Nirvana, Nirguna, that which is the Eternal and Ultimate Truth. The essence and the sum total of this whole talk is called Sat-guru Parabrahman, the state which there are not requirements.
After the dissolution of the universe, when no further vestige of creation was apparent, what remained is my perfect state. All through the creation and dissolution of the universe, I remain ever untouched. I have not expounded this part: my state never felt the creation and dissolution of the universe. I am the principle which survives all creations, all the dissolutions. This is my state, and yours, too, but you don’t realize it because you are embracing your beingness. Realizing it is only possible when one gets support from the invincible faith, from the eternal Sat-guru Parabrahman. This state, this Parabrahman principle, is eternal and is also the Sat-guru. It is the eternal property of any devotee of a Guru.
Fuck the mind-body!
I am not this pathetic form!
I am That which Is!